Sunday, September 7, 2008

Monday Memories


Let me just give you a run down-

I have had 7 live children, and 5 misscarriages, and one I don't really know what to call it.. Let me explain and maybe you can help me decide what to call it, so in all I have been pregnant 13 times, in 10 years of my marriage.. Wow!!!!

Elaiasi was about 6 months old when I became pregnant with Mohekonokono, and his twin.

I about died, another boy. Wait, another boy.. How in the world did we get two in there.. NO twins on his side, no twins on my side... a miricale, except for the fact that they were going to be my #7 and 8. I was shocked, didn't want to beleive it.

I was truly worried for my sanity, how was I going to handle it. This lasted untill I was about 13 weeks when I finally got excited about having twins..

Then came an ultrasound, they thurouly looked at each individule baby closey this time around, and they spent a whole lot of time on baby A which happened to be the bigger baby by about a week in size.

Then they sent me home and told me that I needed to go see a specialist.. Why a specialist. I thought at first that maybe they were downs babies, and no way was I going to see a specialist for that, I love downs babies, and it wouldn't change the fact anyway.

Nope, they wanted me to go to this somewhere special hospital for baby A. Come to find out that he had a whole in his heart. They said that he would be fine, and that he'd go through rounds of surgerys after birth, and so on. I was ok with that, but very scared.. I still loved him to death, and thought everything would be ok,

About 17 weeks came, ultrasound, not only was it a boy, but 2 boys...We were estastic.

I hadn't thrown up once this whole pregnancy, but I started to around 20 weeks, I thought it was morning sickness, ans it was hitting a little late this time, so I didn't worry, I had a ultrasound 2 days later.

Before they could put the doppler on my tummy, I knew something was not right. I had a sick feeling inside for about a week before that, and I thought I was just being paraniod.. The doc came in with about 4 nurses, and they started the ultrasound. First look at baby b.. Baby B was in his own sac, moving and kicking and sucking his thumb. Next baby A. Just lying there, they moved the doppler around for a minute to wake up the baby,at least that is what I was thinking, but I looked at the doctors face, and it was not a face I ever want to remember. He simply told me that our handsome little boy did not make it.

They told me that it had been dead for awhile and I should have misscarried it. I didn't, and that is why I was soo sick, my body trying to get rid of this baby, but it wasn't happening. I was so sick I almost died. It took me a good month and a half for my body to get use to the fact, after that I felt normal again.

Everything went ok untill about 36 weeks, baby B had stopped growing, I had seen different midwives each visit, so nobody seemed to be worried.. I was, this baby was not as big as the rest.. I made them give me an ultrasound, low and behold baby A. had latched onto baby B.'s placenta and was killing it, so at 38 weeks they started the pitocin.. not fun for a lady who was doing it natural.. but only 2 hours after they started me, Mohekonoknono came to be..

Sorry this isn't exciting but I needed to put this down before I forget one day.. Baby A, was a hero, a warrior and he will be truly be missed. I am not sad, nor was I when I delivered him. But to this day when I see a set of twins, I stop and ponder on how it would have been.. Another Monday, another memory...

21 coments:

Jessie said...

Another touching story, Dev. You are such a strong woman it amazes me. Okay, send me a link of someone's website who has it because I'm not sure I understand, but I do know codes, so I might be able to help you figure it out.

Cheryl Anne said...

You should have titled this, WARNING GET YOUR TISSUES FIRST. Jeesh. :) just kidding. You amaze me.

Angie said...

I'm so glad you have that special memory down in writing! When your kids get older you forget all the stuff you never thought you would. I'm sorry you had to go thru that, but look at that beautiful baby!

hoLLy said...

that is so sad:( i'm so sorry you've had to go through so many losses. you are an incredibly strong woman, thats for sure! thanks for sharing your story and thanks for your comforting words on my blog. i've had 2 miscarriages(one of which i had a d&c) and then this molar pregnancy thingy, so i've had a few losses myself, but to lose a child when it is so developed and to have to deliver, i can't even imagine how hard that must have been. yep, i'm sad as i am going through a loss right now, but i'm actually doing okay. i'm mainly nervous right now about the surgery. i just hate hospitals-hate them! joey gave me a blessing last night and i feel a lot of strength and comfort from that. i know everything will be okay, know it without a doubt. and i know we will have lots more babies:)

thanks again for everything!

Pineapple Princess said...

Wow. You can't know how my heart aches for your losses. I can't even imagine the reunion one day when your sons are reunited. The twin bond is so incredible and I am sure Mohekonokono will always feel his brother near.

Thanks for sharing this memory.

Sue and Mark said...

My twins sons were 3 mo.old when I miscarried another son..I couldn't believe I was pregnant again..I had a coil to prevent it..That would've made 6 sons for me..I had to stop after 5.

Your amazing to keep going..13 pregnancies, wow your my "mommie hero"..

"Monday memories are miraculous and melancholy"...

Suka and Brittany said...

Wow! That is incredible. Someone close to me lost a set of twins, so I know it can be difficult. It sounds like you handled it okay, considering, but still- what an intense event for you and your family! ...oh, and PS- NATURAL???!!!

Eric and Brianne Rushton said...

Your blog is very cute and inspiring! Keep up the faith and the good work, your children are beautiful! Love ya much, Brianne

rachel said...

thanks so much for sharing that story. I can relate to you as I have had a sad baby story of my own...the whole process is such a miracle really. It is surprising how it really happens at all...

Suzanne said...

Oh man... that hurts. I'm glad that you wrote it down because time does dim the memory a bit. Still, you never forget...

Vanessa said...

Your stories continue to amaze me! Thanks for sharing!

Amy said...

Dang Devri- I had no idea you had been prego that many times. Nor did I know about all the miscarriages. You are awesome. I also was a twin. Similar situation. At least you know that one day you will see him again. I think the Lord knows what we can handle and maybe he decided that twins might actually take you down...Glad that baby number 7 made it alright! He is a doll!

Mother Goose said...

Amazing! thank you for sharing your story.

Alice Wills Gold said...

Devri,

What a sweet story. I really appreciated it.

I am sorry that I haven't been over. I have been so BUSY!!! It has been all I can barely do to post every day.

I hope to catch up someday soon...really...you will be one of the first places that I visit.

PROMISE..and you will be getting 10 comments at one time.:)

Diaper Diva said...

What an Amazing woman you are. That is such a heartbreaking and touching memory. Thank you for sharing. I have had 4 miscarriges myself. I always remind my self that I can handle it. Your strenght is inspiring.

Jessie said...

Hey Dev. I think I figured that link thing out for ya. Here's a link to my template blog. I just have it to play with before I change my own design on my blog so I don't mess it all up. I'm designing one for Becky right now. Right now I have the tabs linking to individual posts. I think that's what the other blog did. But, you might be able to link it to a series of posts.... or to any posts that are tagged. I haven't looked into how to do that.. but this is what I've got so far. See what you think. I'll have to send you an e-mail to explain how to do it, but it's pretty easy.

Jessie said...

Woops, I forgot to post the web address: http://jessiesdesigns.blogspot.com/

Misty said...

Thanks for this memory - I can't believe how much you have gone through and how many times you have been pregnant. I probably would have given up. The true warrior is YOU!

samiam said...

Wow you are quite a women. That is a very sad story but it is good to get it logged. So sad that you lost the other twin, but it helps to appreciate the one you did have. Babies really are a miracle.

Becky said...

You are amazing. Thanks for the story, and being willing to share!

MiaKatia said...

Oh man your love for those little ones is so strong.