Pray in times of need......

(This was about 7 years ago............)


I had about had it, you know where it gets so bad inside that you just about want to either hit the wall or hit someone..

If you haven't ever felt like that, I just want to say hats off to you, but I have a couple of times in my life...

It was the first time I felt like that when me and my husband were just married, to tell you the truth, I don't even really remember what it was about, but I remember having that feeling, I had no love, no compassion, no pride.

The second time was when my first born was about 3. We were dead broke, we had bill collectors calling all the time, but husband was legal at the time so there wasn't much we could do.

I would get so stressed with my children, I never hurt them, but this day I felt like it.

I remember going into their bedroom, looking around and about ready to lose it, there was a huge mess, baby was hurt, and permanent marker EVERYWHERE!! I had that feeling come over me again, I knew it was happening again, and this time I wanted to stop it, I was so angry and she knew she was in trouble.

How do you stop these feelings?

I will never forget...

I looked at her, she looked at me and tears running down because I had yelled at her. I just about blew it, I had angry and rage, then I lost it.... I did not hit her, I did not hit the wall, I fell to my knees, started to cry and looked at her beautiful face, held my arms out and she ran to me, we hugged and then said a prayer together..

That day was the last time I had ever felt like that, if you love unconditionally, you will be rewarded, if you have faith, he will guide you, if you pray he will help you.

I know that it is soo hard not to loose it, I know that children can be well not so much like a angel at times, but if it ever happens to you, stop drop and love and pray, instead of what Satan wants us to do or feel..

I know that I am not perfect, I still get angry inside sometimes, but I don't let my anger affect my soul anymore, Kids are the most important things on this earth, and lets try a little harder to become more like our saviour in all our doings...

I needed this today, I don't know why, maybe it is a intuition I am having to post about this, maybe it is just a reminder for me to slow down, love a little more, and let life happen...

Is your Visiting Teaching done? I am late, but finally am getting to do it tomorrow...